Hey lovely readers!
This post is a review for This Love Story Will Self-Destruct by Leslie Cohen. Here is little snippet from the synopsis on Goodreads (because I’m terrible about giving my own synopsis of books).
“This is the classic tale of boy meets girl: Girl…goes home with someone else.Meet Eve. She’s a dreamer, a feeler, a careening well of sensitivities who can’t quite keep her feet on the ground, or steer clear of trouble. She’s a laugher, a crier, a quirky and quick-witted bleeding-heart-worrier. Meet Ben. He’s an engineer, an expert at leveling floors who likes order, structure, and straight lines. He doesn’t opine, he doesn’t ruminate, he doesn’t simmer until he boils over.So naturally, when the two first cross paths, sparks don’t exactly fly. But then they meet again. And again. And then, finally, they find themselves with a deep yet fragile connection that will change the course of their relationship—possibly forever.”
Now that you have a little context, lets get into it. This book is not at all what I was expecting it to be. I figured it would be another New Adult romance. You know a little dramatic, filled with smut, and a fluffy happy ending. And I would have been 100% okay with us, because those types of books are my not so guilty pleasure. But this was not that at all. This story was real and honest, and what I feel many of us experience at some point in our lives. And for me the most unique and wonderful aspect of this book is that everything centers around certain places. Like that is how Eve and Ben remember important moments in their relationship, the restaurant they went to, the apartment they were in, the sidewalk they were standing on. I found this to be such an accurate representation of the way people remember important moments, myself included. Now I’ll just say that there aren’t major spoilers here, because I don’t want to ruin the ending for you guys. And I will not be commenting on the entire book, only the parts I feel are important to the overall context of the book. Alright here we go!
Honestly I felt that Eve was me at 17 years old, though she is around 22 when the book starts and 27 when it ends. But what she experienced, I experienced at one point in my life and maybe that’s why I related to it so much. Eve’s father left her family at a young age, and her mother died during the attack on the two towers. So she has experienced a lot of loss and as a result she feels that she will be left by everyone important in her life. She keeps a distance between her and everyone in her life, her stepdad, her sister, and the men in her life.
The first time we get a peek into Eve’s life is when she’s close to finishing college. This is also when we are first introduced to Ben and Jesse, both men will have a significant impact on her life. Though Ben is probably the better choice for Eve, it’s Jesse she wants. They spend time together at a party and then she joins him in conducting some shady business. Ben is encouraged to spend time with one of Eve’s friends.
The next time we meet up with it’s 2 years later, she’s with Jesse, though they do not put a label on their relationship. Eve never says this directly, but the main reason she is with Jesse is because he isn’t “stable” and even though she claims to want a healthy relationship she can’t leave Jesse alone. And this is the point in the book where I really started to understand and identify with Eve. She thrives on the drama that her “relationship” with Jesse provides. She uses it to distract her from the pan she feels due to her father leaving and her mother dying. If she engaged in a “normal” relationship, say with someone like Ben (who’s POV we also get, but I’m focusing on Eve because this is really her story) she feels that they would eventually leave her, because she’s not normal and not worth the effort. Lets just say things with Jesse don’t go smoothly and the next time we meet up with Eve three years have passed.
This was me at 17. My father was absentee and I pushed every boy away who cared before they could hurt me the way he did. I had very low self-esteem and very little sense of self-worth. Much like Eve I gravitated towards the worst kind of person for me, self destructive and emotionally unavailable. And when I finally found someone who loved me regardless of my self imposed flaws I ruined everything. I hurt them first, so sure that they would hurt me.
So enter 27 year old Eve and Ben! Now all I’m going to say is that this is my favorite part of the book. The relationship that develops between these two is so beautifully organic. It is the most realistic portrayal of falling in love that I have ever read. And when Eve notices where the relationship is headed she panics and really you have to wonder how it’s all going to play out. Because honestly it could go either way and still be beautiful. But I’ll let you discover that for yourself. Thanks for reading this one guys, I really put my whole heart into it, because this book has just become so important to me. I hope you love it!
Thanks again for reading guys! Talk to you soon! <3 Adrianna